The Great I Am

this is a great new song that we've been singing for the last few weeks at church, and i have a personal story to go with it... it's been forever since i've blogged, but this is the perfect blog story.

last Sunday morning i was sitting in church across from this man, his wife, and their toddler grandson. this particular man reminds me a lot of my dad. a whole lot, and i was missing my dad. as i watched this man worship God with his grandson in his arms my heart began to ache! oh how i want to give my dad his own grandson to hold. i had never hit this spot before! i started crying and i just couldn't get myself pulled back together. i just cried and cried and cried, it seemed like worship just lasted forever!

we were singing these songs about God being my portion, and He is more than enough for me, and all of those other good things that make worship songs great. but i couldn't sing them. in that moment, i couldn't say that God was enough for me, because i wasn't sure that He was (you know, one of those cross roads things) so i'm praying my way through worship, and crying and crying (which is rather unusual for me), and i'm asking God to purge my heart, because i know that He can be more than enough for me, if i just let Him be.

so i get through church and have a time of prayer and go back for more Sunday night. that's when we sing the Great I Am song. and i was able to say God You are the Great I Am! You can be and are everything that I need as long as i reach out to You. it was just a great moment, and now this song has a specal place in my heart. He is the Great I Am. He can be anything and everything that we need, if we just let Him.

Cheers...