Jimmy Needham Benidiction from Not without Love

I tried Lord
I tried Lord
I tried hard to be Your good little boy
Chin up, head high
All zeal and no joy
Thinking all my good deeds could please Jesus
Boy, was I wrong
Though I knew the right songs, all my cymbals and gongs played the melodies wrong
And it wasn’t long ‘til I saw my disease
A life spent wanting to please
On hands and knees
To make right, to appease
God help me please
This can’t be Christianity,it can’t be
The whole thing’s like insanity
Where’s the rest of eternal security?
Where’s the hope of a God big enough to cope with all my hang-ups and insecurities?
Certainly this isn’t breathing
My chest burning and heaving
It’s like my pulse is ceasing
Like my heart quits beating
Yet this I recall to mind and therefore I have hope:
You died, LordYou died, LordAssuredly,
like the coming of the dawn, the Father’s love song goes on
Drowning out my bitter songs
And breaking through walls and barriersChrist swoops in, removes sin, picks up His bride and carries her
So I can sing in agreement with the King this thing:
There’s only one thing that pleases the Father
The God-man on the tree in the midst of the scoffers
Now I finally see that Christ is what Christ offers
And I’m finally free in the love of the Father

All The Poor And Powerless (Cross Point Worship Team)

rekindeled

Missions is burning in my heart again. maybe it's just because it's almost my absolute favorite time of the year (missions conference) or because the team just gave a presentation on Oaxaca and it brought back so many wonderful memories. i'm not sure what it is, but it's there. i love it, i cherrish it. oh to proclaim it from the moutatin tops that Jesus is Lord!!!! here i am Lord send me!!! here is a song that i enjoy a lot, and we have sang it a few times at church, hope you enjoy it as much as i do!

my prayer for the Christians in Egypt

My heart goes out to those in Egypt. We have friends that live there (by "we" i mean our church), and we have members of our church with friends/family there. in looking at the events and updates of Egypt one thing keeps coming to my mind. and it's Psalms 91. when i read it, it's my prayer for them, that God Almighty would cover them under the shadow of His wings. here it is, when you think about it, say a prayer for them. many are running for their lives...

Psalm 91
The Protection of the Most High 1 The one who lives under the protection of the Most High dwells in the shadow of the Almighty. (A)
2 I will say [a] to the LORD, "My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust." (B)
3 He Himself will deliver you from the hunter's net, (C) from the destructive plague.
4 He will cover you with His feathers; you will take refuge under His wings. (D) His faithfulness will be a protective shield. (E)
5 You will not fear the terror of the night, the arrow that flies by day, (F)
6 the plague that stalks in darkness, or the pestilence that ravages at noon. (G)
7 Though a thousand fall at your side and ten thousand at your right hand, the pestilence will not reach you. (H)
8 You will only see it with your eyes and witness the punishment of the wicked. (I)
9 Because you have made the LORD— my refuge, (J) the Most High—your dwelling place, (K)
10 no harm will come to you; no plague will come near your tent. (L)
11 For He will give His angels orders concerning you, to protect you in all your ways. (M)
12 They will support you with their hands so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. (N)
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra; you will trample the young lion and the serpent. (O)
14 Because he is lovingly devoted to Me, I will deliver him; I will exalt him because he knows My name. (P)
15 When he calls out to Me, I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble. I will rescue him and give him honor. (Q)
16 I will satisfy him with a long life (R) and show him My salvation. (S)

what????

Can't believe it's been so long since i've been on here, let alone blogged anything. perhaps, i will start once again...

so excited!!!

One of the most exciting events happened to me yesterday! i received a letter from Elisabeth Elliot Gren!!!! Oh my goodness! a little over a week ago i finally decided to write her a letter. you know she's getting up there in age, and a couple of years ago i tried to write a letter to her, but like so many other times i just chickened out on sending it, but this time i did it. and i got a response!!!! it was just a short one page letter typed out (i went through this thing in my head about if i was going to type out my letter to her, or if i would do old school hand writing, old school won, i wanted it to have more of a personal feel to it!) and the top part was kind of a news letter, and the bottom was a letter written to me!!!

each topic of my letter was addressed in a very simple matter and was very warm too. wishing the best for my hopes and dreams, you know, things like that. she even gave me a book referral, which i will purchase just because it was a personal recommendation from one of my heroes, and two other poems in closed. one was by an anonymous author and the other one was just sweet. so i've posted both of them below. i hope you enjoy them as much as i do/did.

Child of My love, fear not the unknown marrow,
Dread not the new demand life makes of thee;
Thy ignorance doth hold no cause for sorrow
Since what thou knowest not is known to Me.

Thou canst not see today the hidden meaning
Of my command, but thou the light shalt gain;
Walk on in faith, upon My promise leaning,
And as thou goest all shall be made plain.

One step thou seest-then go forward boldly,
One step is far enough for faith to see;
Take that, and thy next duty shall be told thee,
For step by step thy Lord is leading thee.

Stand not in fear thy adversaries counting,
Dare every peril, save to disobey;
Thou shalt march on, all obstacles surmounting,
For I, the Strong, will open up the way.

Wherefore go gladly to the task assigned thee,
Having my promise, needing nothing more
Than just to know, wher’er the future find thee,
In all thy journeying I go before.

- Anonymous






He knows
He knows it all- the winding path,
The sky o’ercast and gray,
The steepness of the mountainside,
The roughness of the way.

He knows it all- the haunting fear,
The doubtings that distress,
The wond’rings and perplexities,
And all the strain and stress.

He know it all- each troubled thought,
Each anxious wave of care,
And every burden, every grief,
Or cross that thou dost bear.

He knows it all- thy weight of woe,
Thine often tear-dimmed eye,
The stabbing pain, the slow, dull ache,
And sorrow’s broken cry.

He knows it all- you are His child,
Thy wounds He takes by choice.
He gave Himself to bring you home,
So trust Him, and rejoice!


- E. Margaret Clarkson

starting c25k

well, it's been 4 months since i've blogged. ouch... nothing really blog worthy to write about though, but last night i started something new. the couch to 5k running program.

i would like to use the term "start" rather loosely, because i didn't get off to a great start. however, i did start. i just keep trying to tell myself "if i can just start running, i know i'd fall in love with it".

a friend of mine said she was going to start this program, so i thought i would check it out and thought that it didn't look that hard, so i'd give it a try. i have to do something. i just keep gaining weight and getting more and more out of shape, and if i ever want to be a missionary in a remote place, i guess i'd better be in shape before i go.

so, this program is designed to teach you how to run a 5k in 9 weeks by interval training. you go 3 times a week with a day of rest in between your workout days. it's a 20 min workout. you warm up by briskly walking for 5min and then jog 60 seconds and brisk walking 90 seconds, and continue until you have reached 20 min.

i set out thinking this was going to be a breeze. jogging for 60 seconds is like nothing right? WRONG!!! the first interval wasn't to bad, and neither was the second, actually i did okay until the 4th, so i cut that one a little short, then the 5th came and i only did 1/2 of it. then i walked the rest of the way back to the house. my hair was plastered to my head, my chest was aching, and i was sure i'd done almost the whole 20 min. i took off my nifty arm band for my ipod and checked the time, and only 10.5 min had past! i'd only done half of it and thought i was going to die!!!!

i was still panting and gasping for air and was just gross when i walked in the house. by the looks of me you would have thought i'd already did my 5k! but i didn't.

this morning i was sore and stiff! we calculated how far i'd gone and it was a mile and a half in 10.5 min, so it wasn't all that bad. i plan on going again on Monday night after class, or again on Tuesday. i want to post each time i go so maybe it will keep me motivated? it's worth a shot!

if you want to check out this program, just google it!