alive in this moment

thought i would share something with you all that I've been going through this year. i know it's nothing unusual, but i thought i would share it with you in case one of you are going through it, and you feel like you are alone. this year has been tough, real tough, most of it through my own demise though, i take full responsibility for it. I've talked with God with it a lot too. This has truly been the hardest spiritual year yet. it seems as if it's had more downs than ups. it seems that God has been so distant, so far away, so untouchable. I've prayed, and asked God to come and touch me, and to do a new work in me, and so forth. I've been asking God and asking God and asking God, but He wants me to quit asking and start doing. I've come clean about everything in my life that i knew wasn't right. I've started a fresh page, I'm on the right track now. But God's not going to bless you if you know that what you are doing is wrong. and i knew that i was wrong. but He has restored me as His child once again. i have this CD that i adore. it's Starfield. it's their first one, and the whole album is good. if you've never heard their music, i know they have stuff on myspace, and youtube. anyway, they are very anointed, and there is this song that is of such great comfort to me, to let me know that I'm not alone, and that God does hear me, and that we all make bad choices sometimes. it's like a breath of fresh air when i hear this song. it does something deep within my spirit, and it gives me hope. it's called Alive in this Moment. I'm going to write out the words b/c i think that you all should have the opportunity to see them, let them speak to you, cry out to God, He's there, just waiting for His child to come climb up on His lap and to talk to Him. He misses hearing from you just as much as we miss hearing from Him when it feels like it's been forever. Here are the words, please take a few min to read them.
Alive in this Moment
it's been so long since i have met You
here since i have said these words or cried these tears
and like a child would come i run into our secret place
and as the music fades, the tears are rolling down my face
i am alive in this moment in this moment
i am found
i am alive in this moment in this moment
it's belong it's been so long since i have met You here
since i have heard You speak
or let You near and like a wayward son I've come with nothing left to hide
here in this moment i have come to offer up my life
here only one fire burns,
it burns here only one melody is heard once again
for the very first time my eyes are opening.

hope you enjoyed it and it made sense.hope to hear from you soon,
Adrienne