poem

yesterday i went to my moms to help her clean out some things, we didn't do what we had planed on doing, but ended up cleaning out something else.  and in that mess that was mine, i found some poem books.  i like to write down and keep copies of things that other people have wrote, just because it holds a special memory or something to that effect, or it just spoke something significant to me.  the poem i'm going to post is one that i've held on since 1999 or 2000 (that was just yesterday right?)  anyway, i was a part of a social network called collegeclub and you signed up for all these things that you want to get in on, whether it's about a fav movie, or music, or poetry, and on and on and on, like i said this was the first big social networking thing that i knew about, anyway, there was this post by this person who i only know as libteconilgst or something to that effect, and i've carried this poem with me many many places, and here it is, making an appearance on the world wide web, with the whole 4 people that read my blog, anyway, i hope you enjoy this poem as much as i did.

hey God

hey God what's been up with You lately?

and You ask about me?

i've been okay,

i'm sorry that i haven't found time to pray.

i was hiding between my books and it flew away on a daydream,

about the guy down the hall.

the truth, the hard facts

well... i don't mean to dis You 

but...

other things are more important

than You.

at least right now.

at least until i cry.

i'm just being real God

i mean

i love You

yeah, just like the player loves his...girl

sure i love you.

but You know You aren't the only 

god in my life.

money, clothes, school, guys,

friends, parties, sleep...i really love sleep

they are gods too.

they make me.

why should You get priority?

oh, just because You made me?

Just because You sent Your Son and He died for me?

hmmmm....

and You protect me

You love me

You're always there

even though

even though i treat You like 

this?

well my clothes protect me

and my friends make life fun,

but i guess You have a point here,

You don't come first

and i know what You want

all or nothing eh?

all of me or none?

okay, i've decided

wait

can we make a deal?

how about i give You 

80 percent

and i keep 20?

all or nothing?

but i'm not perfect

all or nothing?

You know, i give up

i can't take this

it's nothing

You hear that?

i can't do this anymore

it's nothing

no more lies.

see, because i love You like a player 

loves his...girl

and i don't want to hurt You 

anymore

it's nothing, i promise God, no more

it's better if i just give up

than if i stand in the middle.

wait God wait!

where are You going? come back in

i just died to my flesh

the answer was nothing

i choose nothing

i give You everything

Satan gets nothing.

You thought i would choose him over You?

well, i see why You would

i have been.  but no more winner takes all

and in the fight of good verses evil, You must win.